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Sway
By EponinesGhost

Whether she knows it or not, she has me in the palm of her hand. I don't know when or how it happened. I'm still at a total loss to explain it. Technically, I'm her superior, I hold the position of authority, influence. I may be the only one who knows how truly laughable that is. And I hope to keep it that way. I have to keep it that way ...

There's a little game I play almost daily, where I decide that I'm mistaken, that I'm not completely under her spell. Some days it almost works. Almost. But then she looks at me ...

The most disturbing part of the whole situation, the thing that really gets me, is that she's not even trying. She's unaware that she wields this power, has this measure of control. It frightens me to imagine what she could do if she did know, if she actually put some effort into it. I shudder to think ...

I take it back. The most unsettling aspect of the position I've found myself in is that I don't want to be set free. That I have come to crave this poignant captivity. And I don't know what that says about me ...


Whether she knows it or not, she has me wrapped around her little finger. I don't even remember when I first recognized it, or why I wasn't surprised. It started out as simply enough. Admiration, a touch of hero worship perhaps. Somewhere along the line, it evolved into something far deeper, something I'm hesitant to examine ...

I've wrestled with the futility of it all, the lose-lose proposition I face every day. I've had other job offers, better opportunities. Escape hatches. But none of them involve her ...

The most troubling thing about being trapped by these circumstances, willingly submitting to them, is that she might leave. That the chaos and garbage and headaches we deal with will one day be too much. That she'll finally realize there's more to life. Part of me wants that for her, the rest of me shakes at the thought ...

That's not entirely true. The scariest scenario I can fathom is that I remain content with the status quo. Never moving forward or away, being satisfied with that. And I don't know what kind of person that makes me ...

The End

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