DISCLAIMER: I don't own anything. Fox owns it all. Nor, do I own the song Never Gone. It is by the Backstreet Boys... My obsession is at an all time high... - ashamed-
SPOILERS: Spoiler for the season finale. Haven't seen it? Don't read it then. Oh, and I was really tired when I wrote this. So, detail is lacking. It is also posted on FF.net. So do not sue me for copywrite issues. :)
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Never Gone
By baby.capri.1990

 

The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you

When I first met Cameron, we weren't on good terms with each other. I didn't know why but… there was something about her that intrigued me. Whether it was the strength she held within that cyber genetic body of hers or the literal, quick-witted comments Cameron usually said… I don't know.

Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never separate us
Deep inside I know you are

I can't believe I'm saying this but… I miss her - more than anything in the world. It's something that I'll never understand. I'm not saying that Cameron wasn't loved by John, or myself, because she was. She was our only hope. She could take those bullets, the beatings, everything, better than John and I can. Unlike us, she wouldn't die if she got a shot to the head.

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life (yeah)
Never gone

It was horrible – the way she had to go. It was John's birthday. I sent her out to get a birthday cake because I was too busy, as I told her. It should have been me…

I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

I felt a tear fall from my eyes. I don't know if it was seeing John sulk because of Cameron's death or if it was the loss of Cameron.

(Somehow)
Somehow you found a way
To see the best I have in me
As long as time goes on
I swear to you that you will be

I don't know if I loved her like a daughter or more then that.

Never gone from me
If there's one thing I believe (I believe)
I will see you somewhere down the road again

No, no. That's wrong. It's not supposed to be like this – a robot and a human. Robots can't love. They can't… Somehow, I know that Cameron's going to come back somehow.

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close (always close)
Everyday (everyday)
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye (yeah yeah)
I know you will be forever in my life (in my life)

I still feel that burning metal against my hands. I attempted to pull her out of that jeep… but she was gone before I had a chance. My hands are forever scarred…

Never gone, never far
In my heart (in my heart is where) is where you are (you are)
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way

I will long – forever – to see those wide eyes stare back at me.

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are

And I will tell myself, everyday, that she's never gone.

The End

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