DISCLAIMER: I unfortunately don't own these two lovely characters. They belong to Dick Wolf and NBC. I'm just borrowing them for a little while. I thought they needed some cheering up.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This story came to life after I attended this year's Boston Pride. I got somewhat inspired at the women's block party and this is the result.
ARCHIVING: Only with the permission of the author.

First Time
By Athena

Part One

New York City, 1990

Alexandra Cabot looked at the crowd in awe. She had never seen so many women in the same spot; not counting any of her mother's fundraiser events of course. This was different, very different. Alex highly doubted that her mother would want to be associated with these women. Luckily Alex was not her mother, and more than anything she wanted to belong here. She jumped as she felt an arm around her shoulders.

"What's eating you, darling?"

Alex grinned at the young man next to her. "Nothing, Will. I was just watching the crowd."

He smiled at her. Alex was adorable. If he had been interested in girls at all, she would be on top of his list. Instead, they were best friends. During sophomore year he had brought the brainy girl out of her shell and introduced her to all the fun to be had in Boston. As their friendship had grown, Alex had shared more and more secrets with him until one day, she was finally ready to come out to him. He had been so proud of her. During the two years he had known her, Alex had been plagued with journalists and paparazzi following her every step. At one point someone had taken a picture of the two of them outside the Club Café in Boston and a couple of days later it had appeared in a magazine. Alex's mother had been furious. It had taken him hours to calm Alex down after that disturbing phone call. After that incident Alex had stayed out of the limelight. She had not dated and had completely submerged herself in her studies. He knew she was hurt and he wanted to help her. Will smiled at the beautiful, tall, blonde woman next to him. He knew he would protect Alex, no questions asked, whenever she needed it.

"Thank you for this," she said softly.

Alex had known for as long as she could remember that she was attracted to women. She had just started to venture out into the gay world in Boston when those awful pictures had appeared. The result; she had withdrawn into her protective shell again, focusing all her energy on her studies. She was not ashamed of being gay. That was not the issue. The fact that she was quite inexperienced, however, was. She did not want printed proof of her first stumbling steps into the world of dating and clubbing. She had wanted to attend Boston Pride, but was not ready to invite the whole world into her personal life. When she had told Will, he had come up with the perfect solution: New York Pride. So here they were, the two of them in the big city. Alex was amazed that no one had recognized her, or even looked twice over their shoulder at her. She had started to relax and realized that she was having a great time. Alex smiled at the handsome man standing next to her.

Will had given up the boys block party to go to the girls party with Alex. He glanced over at their friends Bobbie and Angie. The two women were dancing and in their own little world. He felt Alex stiffen under his arm and looked at her. She had a strange look on her face. Her lips were slightly parted. He noticed the pink tip of her tongue lightly wet her lower lip. Oh boy, he knew that look. Will looked out over the crowd and tried to figure out who had caught Alex's attention.

"She's stunning," Alex mumbled.

The music was loud and he had difficulties hearing her. "What?" he said loudly, his lips close to her ear. She turned and grinned at him.

"Over by the bar, tall woman in a white tank top, short dark hair. She's with a group of people, three guys and a blonde woman."

He looked at the group and immediately saw the woman who had caused lustful emotions to soar in Alex's delicate body. Good taste Alex. They watched the woman and her friends for a moment. When she reached out and took the blonde's hand, Alex stiffened next to him. He watched as the two made their way to the dance floor.

"She's gorgeous."

"Nice body," he said supportive.

Alex turned and grinned. "Yeah that too, but I was referring to her girlfriend. She's perfect."

He looked at the blonde and had to agree. She was amazingly beautiful. "It might not be what you think. They might just be friends."

As if the blonde woman had heard him, she put her arms around the other woman's neck and kissed her on the lips.

"Right," Alex said sarcastically. She tried to look away but she was mesmerized by the women.

Will glanced over to the three guys who were still standing at the bar. "I'll be right back Alex. Can I get you a drink?"

"Sure. A beer please."

He smiled and made his way through the crowd. Alex watched him strike up a conversation with the handsome, blonde guy. Will was so smooth. She watched him flirt with the blonde guy and offered him a drink. A few minutes later he returned to her side.

"Her name is Olivia," he said.

Olivia. She tasted the name as she looked at the woman who was still on the dance floor. It fit her.

"They're not together."

Alex was stunned. "You asked him that?"

"Well, I was actually trying to figure out if the cute blonde guy was with anyone. I kind of just fit you into the conversation. A guy needs a reason to be at the girls' party, you know."

Alex blanched. "What did you say?"

He laughed and gave her a sideways hug. "Don't worry. I only used you as an excuse for being here. That's when they mentioned Olivia and Jill."

"So how do you know they are not together?"

"Because Julian, the blonde guy said Jill wanted to come here to check out the girls and Olivia thought they should all come."

"But they kissed."

"I've kissed you," he said and grinned.

She made a face. "Not the same thing."


Olivia pulled Jill closer. She grinned at her. Jill smiled and her face transformed. Jill was the most beautiful woman she had ever known. The amazing thing was that she was just as beautiful on the inside. Olivia's experience with very attractive women was that many of them were very shallow. She was glad that Jill was her friend, she did not know if she could handle the pressure of dating her. Olivia was taken by surprise when her beautiful friend kissed her.

"What was that for?" she shouted into Jill's ear.

"You seemed to be far away. Do you object?" Jill grinned at her.

"Of course not. You're a great kisser. I'm now the envy of every woman here."

Jill just smiled sweetly at her and kept dancing. A thin film of sweat coated her chest and she was panting in the heat. Olivia pulled her close and slid her arms around her waist. They continued dancing until Jill finally declared that she needed a drink. She took Olivia's hand and together they made their way back to the bar.

Julian smiled and handed the two women a beer. Olivia pressed hers against her flustered face.

"God I'm hot," she said.

"Oh yeah, baby," Jill teased.

Olivia winked at her.

"Someone has been asking about you, Liv," Julian said and smiled at her.

She raised an eyebrow. "Who?"

"Will."

Olivia barely refrained from choking on her beer. "A guy?" she sputtered and wiped her lips with the back of her hand.

"Well, I think it might have been his friend who's interested. Alex. His female friend Alex."

"Who is she?" Jill piped in.

"See over by the door to Enrique's? The blonde Ralph Lauren twins?"

Olivia glanced around trying to spot the woman without being too obvious. She was a cop after all; she was trained in surveillance techniques. She almost got away with it. She would have, had Alex not happened to be looking her way at that exact moment. Their eyes met. Olivia held her gaze until Julian nudged her. She tore her eyes away from the woman.

"What?" she said irritated.

"You were staring."


Alex kept watching Olivia and Jill. She saw how Jill take Olivia's hand as if it was the most natural thing in the world. At that moment she wanted nothing more than to be in Jill's place. When Olivia pressed the cold beer can against her flustered skin Alex bit her lip.

"Oh god," she mumbled as Olivia's breasts stretched the material of her tank top when she choked on the beer.

"Alex."

She tore her eyes off of Olivia and smiled at Will. "Yes?"

"I think you should talk to her."

She shook her head. "I can't."

"What's the worst thing that could happen? That she says no?"

"Yes."

"I don't think she will."

"Oh, and why is that?"

"Because she's looking at you too."

Alex looked over to the bar. Will was right, Olivia was looking at them. She smiled at her and almost laughed out loud when Olivia returned the smile.

"Told ya'," Will said and grinned at her.

Alex gave him a look that would have intimidated most people, but not Will. She glanced back at Olivia, but the woman had her back to her, leaning against the bar while talking to Jill. Alex sighed, disappointed.

Will gently nudged her. "Come on, let's dance."


Olivia glanced over her shoulder but the woman was gone. She sighed and took another sip of her beer. She leaned against the bar.

"She's on the dance floor," Jill said softly.

"Huh? Who?"

Jill smirked and folded her arms. She leaned closer until her face was inches from Olivia's. "The blonde, Alex."

"Oh."


Alex smiled at Will. He was a great dancer. She took a step towards him when she felt a pair of slender arms circle her waist. She stiffened. Soft lips brushed against her ear.

"You were watching me."

Alex turned in Olivia's arms and smiled at her. "I thought you were worth watching."

Olivia grinned. "Is that so? Well, I thought you were worth checking out."

Alex felt a push in the small of her back and the next second she was pressed against Olivia. Olivia tightened her grip on her to steady her. She looked Alex in the eyes and smiled. "Dance with me." She gently took Alex's right hand and put it on her shoulder and pulled her closer.


Will watched Alex and Olivia on the dance floor. He turned to Julian. "I hope she won't hurt her. "

"Don't worry. Olivia is good."

Will ran his hand down Julian's arm. "I hope you're right."

Julian winked at him. "Trust me."

Will grinned.

"So Will, you're from Boston. Are you staying in the city tonight or are you going back?"

"We're staying for a few days."

"You and Alex?"

He nodded. "And two other friends."

"Which hotel?"

Will shook his head. "Alex's family has an apartment here. We're staying there."

"Then maybe you'd like to go out tonight?" Julian said and smiled at him.

Will glanced at Alex on the dance floor. She had her arms around Olivia's neck and a smile played on her lips.

"She'll be fine with Olivia."

"Can she protect her? This is a dangerous city."

Julian put an assuring hand on Will's shoulder. "Probably better than you can, Will. Olivia is a cop."


Olivia reached for Alex's beer. "Do you mind sharing?" she asked as her fingers graced over Alex's.

Alex smiled and extracted her hand from Olivia's. Her heart was still pounding, but it no longer had anything to do with dancing.

Olivia leaned closer. "I'm getting hungry. Would you like to grab something to eat?"

"Sure, but I should let Will know."

Olivia glanced over to where Julian and Will were busy gazing at each other. "Seems like he's busy."

Alex shook her head. "Come on." She took Olivia's hand just like Jill had earlier. To her delight, Olivia wrapped her fingers around her hand in a tight grip.


"Will, Olivia is taking me out for dinner. I'll see you later, all right?"

Will tore his eyes away from Julian. He leaned over and kissed her on the cheek. "Have fun, darling."

She smiled. Oh I definitely intend to. "You too."

As they turned to leave, Olivia heard someone call her name. She turned around.

"Leaving so soon, Liv? You haven't even introduced me to your new friend," Jill said and chuckled.

"Jill. This is Alex. Alex. Jill. Jill and I sort of work together."

"Nice to meet you, Jill," Alex said and smiled at the beautiful blonde.

Jill took the offered hand in a warm handshake. "A pleasure, Alex."

Olivia coughed as Jill held Alex's hand a moment too long for her taste. "Jill, Alex and I are going to grab something to eat. Do you want to come?"

Jill contemplating it for a second, but decided that she could not do that to her friend. "Thanks, but I'm not hungry. Maybe I'll see you guys later."

"Sure."

"Nice meeting you, Alex."

"Likewise," Alex said and smiled at her.

"Come on," Olivia gently tugged at Alex's hand.


Alex grinned at Olivia. "You're a cop?"

"Yeah. What's so funny about that?" Olivia said a little hurt.

Alex put her hand on top of Olivia's that was resting on the table. "You're so attractive."

"Thanks I guess," Olivia said with a lopsided grin.

"Can I see your badge?"

Olivia raised an eyebrow. "You don't believe me."

"Of course I believe you, Olivia. I just… forget it." Alex removed her hand and reached for her wine.

Olivia stopped her and waited until Alex looked at her. "I'm sorry." She reached into her pocket and pulled out her badge and ID. "Here," she said and put it in Alex hand.

Alex felt the weight of the badge in her hand. It was heavier than expected. She looked at Olivia's picture on the ID. "Olivia Benson," she read. "Cute picture."

"Yeah, that's me. Cute cop, badge number…"

Alex laughed. It made Olivia all warm inside.

"I want to dance with you again Alex."

Alex smiled and cocked her head. "I think I'd like that, Officer."

Olivia rolled her eyes. "Are we into role playing games, Ms.?" Olivia suddenly realized that she did not know Alex's last name. All through dinner Alex had been asking Olivia questions, expertly steering the conversation away from herself.

Alex took a deep breath and looked down. She traced the edge of her dessert spoon. "Cabot," she said softly.

"Cabot," Olivia repeated. Then her trained mind added things together. Classic features, the ease with how she ordered the wine, how she moved her elegant hands, her posture, even her clothes; though they seemed regular at a first glance, they fit Alex's slender body perfectly, a sign of expensive material and the touch of a good tailor. Everything about Alex screamed aristocracy. Cabots of Boston. Old money. "Alexandra Cabot," she said slowly and leaned back in her chair. "I've read about you in the paper."

Alex nodded silently, still refusing to look at Olivia. She flinched when she touched her chin. Unable to pull away from Olivia's gentle touch she was forced to look at her.

"Alex, it's all right."

Alex nodded silently.

"Come on, let's get out of here. I want to go somewhere where I can hold you. If you want to."

"I do."

Olivia awarded her one of her beautiful smiles. Alex felt warm inside.


Olivia pushed the door to her studio open with her hip. She pulled Alex inside and closed the door behind them. Her keys and badge were dropped into a bowl on the table by the door. She watched as Alex walked over to the window. The lights from the city reflected on her pale face. She looked almost surreal. Olivia kicked off her shoes and crossed the space between them. She turned Alex around and pulled her into her arms.

"You're so beautiful," she whispered and kissed her.

Alex felt her heart beating so hard she was sure Olivia must be able to hear it too. She moaned against her lips. Her lips separated and the next thing she knew was the incredible feeling of Olivia's soft tongue touching hers. She felt her knees go weak and protested when Olivia's lips left hers.

"It's okay honey, I've got you."

"I… Olivia," Alex said breathlessly.

"Come on. I need a shower. Join me?" Olivia said and smiled at her, her brown eyes twinkling.

Alex had never shared a shower with anyone in her life, but she was not about to tell that to this gorgeous woman. Instead she just nodded and followed Olivia on slightly shaky legs.

Alex watched Olivia remove her tank top. Her strong back muscles rippled under her skin. She gasped. Olivia turned and smiled at her. She looked magnificent. She let the tank top drop to the floor and reached out her hands to Alex, who had not made any effort to take off her clothes. "Come here," she said softly. "Do I make you nervous, Alex?"

Alex nodded.

Olivia kissed her again. "I don't want to make you uncomfortable. If you don't want to take a shower together we don't have to."

"I want to," she whispered and kissed Olivia.

Olivia gently unbuttoned Alex's shirt and pushed it over her shoulders. She quickly found the clasp to Alex's bra, and a moment later it landed on top of the shirt. She watched Alex toss her head back as she cupped her breasts. Olivia ran her thumbs over Alex's nipples causing her to moan. When she reached for the button to Alex's pants, the blonde's head snapped back up and they looked at each other.

"Is this okay?" Olivia asked softly.

"Yes, Officer," Alex said huskily.

Olivia laughed. "As you wish. May I remove your pants, Ms. Cabot?"

"You may."

Restraint Olivia. She scolded herself, as she pushed Alex's pants down her legs, her actions bringing her face within inches of Alex's center. Get cleaned up first, pleasure afterwards. Without further delay she stripped out of her pants and underwear. After a quick check to make sure the water temperature was right, she held out her hand to Alex. "Ms. Cabot?"

"After you. Officer."

Olivia watched the water cascade down Alex's body. She looked like a goddess. My Aphrodite. Alex finished rinsing her hair and opened her eyes. Clear blue eyes framed by wet eyelashes looked intently at her. Olivia pulled Alex closer and kissed her. She felt Alex's soft breasts press against her chest and ran her hands down Alex's long back to gently cup her behind. Then Alex's tongue touched her lips and she pressed her closer. When the water turned cold, Olivia reached out and turned off the shower. She took Alex's hand and helped her out of the tub. Gently, as if Alex was made of the most delicate porcelain, Olivia dried her body. She kneeled on the floor and lifted her foot. She dried it carefully and then performed the same act on the other foot. Finally, she quickly rubbed herself dry under the scrutiny of Alex's pale eyes. Without a word she took Alex's hand and led her out of the bathroom.

Alex was more aroused than she had ever been before in her young life. This woman was amazing, but at the same time slightly frightening. Alex had never met anyone as powerful as Olivia. Then Olivia's lips were on top of hers again.

"I want you, Alex," Olivia mumbled against her lips.

"Oh, Liv," Alex moaned as Olivia's lips found an extra sensitive spot under her ear.

Olivia smiled at the use of her nickname. She gently lowered Alex to the bed. Olivia put her knee on the bed next to her and just looked at her for a moment. Alex smiled up at her and held out her hand to her. Olivia placed her hand in hers. To her surprise, Alex pulled on her hand until Olivia lost her balance and tumbled onto the bed. The next she knew, she was underneath five foot eight of incredible softness. She must have looked surprised because Alex chuckled softly before kissing her. She ran her hands down Alex's back and then quickly rolled them over.

"Please, Alex. I want to make love to you," she said and kissed her softly.

Alex nodded silently.

It's finally happening. She sighed as Olivia caressed her stomach and moved higher until her hand covered her left breast. Olivia's lips found hers again just as she rolled the already sensitive nipple between her fingers. Alex arched to meet her hand. Then Olivia's lips were gone. She mumbled a protest, but gentle fingers touched her lips, begging her to be patient. She sighed and looked up at Olivia's smiling face. She held her gaze as Olivia bent her head and, ever so slowly, closed her lips around her right nipple. She sobbed, it felt so good. Olivia shifted so her knee nestled between Alex thighs. She pushed up against Olivia, trying to relieve the tension that was building in her body. Olivia chuckled against her breast sending shivers through her body. Alex sighed as Olivia's hand started its trek down her body. It rested for a moment on top of the neatly trimmed patch of pubic hairs, then slipped inside Alex's wet folds. She couldn't hold back any longer. She cried out Olivia's name as her body lurched to meet her hand. She whimpered as Olivia's fingers gently caressed her.

"Olivia, I need you…" she whispered.

"What do you need, sweetheart?" Olivia asked softly. "Tell me what you want."

Coherent thought was not high on Alex's list at the moment. All she could come up with was, "More."

"You are so beautiful, Alex. So passionate," Olivia whispered in her ear. She trailed kisses down Alex's slender neck and nibbled on her soft skin. Her hand was slowly caressing Alex's wet folds. Olivia could feel that Alex was close, and ever so gently, she slipped two fingers inside of her. What happened next happened so fast. As her fingers started to enter Alex she felt something she had not felt in a very long time…resistance. She froze and looked at Alex. Alex had stiffened and looked like a deer caught in the headlights. Olivia gently slipped out of her just as Alex rolled away from her. She watched as this beautiful creature curled up and started crying.

Christ, she's never been with anyone before. And you made her shower naked with you. Shit Olivia!

Olivia gently turned Alex over and wrapped her arms around her. "I'm so sorry. It never occurred to me to ask."

"I'm so stupid. I don't know anything," Alex mumbled against her chest.

Olivia gently cupped Alex's face. "No Alex, you're not stupid. You are beautiful and sweet and I find you incredibly attractive. I still want to make love to you, but I need to know if you are okay with this. If not, I'll just hold you in my arms as we sleep."

Alex looked into Olivia's soft, dark eyes through tear soaked lashes. She leaned forward and pressed her lips against Olivia's. "I want you, Liv."

After long moments of caressing Alex, and covering her body with kisses, Olivia's lips found the soft inside of Alex's slender thighs. She placed Alex's right leg on her shoulder and gently pushed the other down on the bed. Alex's folds opened up like an exotic flower, pink, covered in morning dew and emitting a fragrance so intoxicating Olivia had to inhale deeply before she could proceed. At that moment she knew that she was bonding in a very special way with this incredible woman. No matter what would happen and who she would end up with years from now, the smell and feel of Alex Cabot would forever be etched into her mind. Olivia Benson did not know at that moment that there would never be anyone like Alex. Ever. But as her lips tasted Alex for the first time she didn't care. As her tongue searched and learned, Alex's body moved to meet her. She knew Alex wanted more, but not tonight. Tonight would only be about pleasure. She ran her tongue over Alex's center again causing her to moan loudly. Even though an hour ago she didn't know the little sounds Alex Cabot made when being made love to, Olivia now knew them all by heart. She knew how to make them happen and it brought her almost as much pleasure as it did Alex. She wrapped her lips around Alex's center and sucked her into her mouth while keeping a steady pressure with her tongue. It did not take much before she cried out. Over and over again she yelled Olivia's name as the orgasm caused her body to arch against her mouth. Finally, she fell back down on the bed. She was covered in sweat and breathing in heavy gasps, gulping for air. Olivia pulled her into her arms and rocked her gently.

"I've got you. You're okay, sweetheart, you're okay," she mumbled and kissed Alex head.

Alex chuckled. "Okay? I don't think that quite describes my situation, Officer Benson," she said and grinned at Olivia.

"Is that so, Ms. Cabot?"

"I think something along the lines of "completely satisfied and utterly spent" is a bit closer, but still not quite right." She kissed Olivia and blushed when she realized what the new flavor on Olivia's lips was. "That was incredible, Liv," she said shyly.

"You are incredible," Olivia said and kissed her again. Then she noticed that her face was still wet. "Sorry," she said and wiped her face on the sheet. "Do you mind me kissing you after pleasuring you like that? Not all women care for it."

"Olivia," Alex said amused at the concern in Olivia's voice. "Do I look like I have objections?"

"Eh, no not really."

"Then don't worry about it. Trust me; I'll let you know if I don't like something."

"Okay."

"Now let me show you something," she said and turned Olivia over.

Olivia pulled Alex on top of her so she was completely covered by her. Alex smiled down at her and gently kissed her. She kissed her neck and her collarbones and found an interesting ticklish spot on her neck that she examined until Olivia begged her to move on. She spent extra time loving Olivia's breasts with both hands and lips. She playfully grazed her teeth over Olivia's nipple causing a sound that could most accurately be considered a growl to escape from Olivia's lips. Alex smiled against the soft flesh. You liked that didn't you Liv? She continued kissing her way down Olivia's body. Then suddenly Olivia reached out and took her hands. She looked up at her.

"Did I do something wrong?" she asked confused.

Olivia shook her head. "Never. Alex, you don't have to make love to me the way I did to you. There are other ways."

"Olivia," Alex cut her off.

"Yes?"

"I want to. No, I need to. Please?"

Olivia laughed in joy at the need in Alex voice. She opened her legs to accommodate her beautiful companion.

Alex kneeled between Olivia's legs and gently pushed her thighs further apart. Carefully she opened Olivia's folds and inhaled her scent. She had never been this close to a woman before. She wanted to experience it to the fullest. Slowly she lowered her head and pressed her lips against Olivia.

Olivia watched the emotions play out on Alex's face. This beautiful and wonderful woman was about to make love to her. She was her first. Don't disappoint her Olivia. She gasped as Alex tongue snaked its way around her folds. It felt wonderful. Still she needed more. Alex was exploring, not yet committed to a strategy. Olivia gritted her teeth. She needed release.

"Alex, sweetheart, please stop playing. I need you to…"

"What do you want, Liv?" Alex repeated Olivia's question to her only moments ago.

"Inside. I need to feel you inside."

Alex suddenly felt unsure. She carefully caressed Olivia until her hand was covered in her juices. Looking up at Olivia she slowly slipped one finger inside of her. Olivia's body surged up to meet her hand.

"Yes, Alex! That's it! More," Olivia moaned.

Alex added another finger, keeping a steady pace. She watched Olivia's face.

"More," Olivia breathed and moaned again.

Alex looked down to where her hand was joined with Olivia's body and slowly added a third finger. She held still at Olivia's entrance for a second. Then Olivia covered her hand and gently pushed her fingers inside her. "You can't hurt me, honey," she whispered. She let go of Alex's hand and let her find the rhythm again. Then she gently touched Alex's cheek. "Please," she begged.

Alex instantly understood what she needed. She lowered her head and her lips found Olivia's soft folds again. Moments later she heard Olivia cry out her name. She smiled against soft skin. This amazing woman had cried out her name in her moment of release. When Olivia finally put her hand on her head to stop her, Alex slowly pulled out of her. She was almost lifted off the bed when Olivia reached out and pulled her up and into her arms. Alex fell asleep with Olivia's arms around her, a content smile playing on her beautiful face.


They had made love again when they woke up the next morning, and again in the shower. At the moment Alex was resting in Olivia's arms after another round of heated pleasure. She had enjoyed it all but something was still missing. She felt awkward asking Olivia, but she had to. But how?

"Liv?" she mumbled against Olivia's stomach. "Why didn't you?"

Olivia gently pulled her up so she could see her face. "Why didn't I what?"

"You know," Alex said nervously. "Last night, when you first made love to me. Why didn't you…go inside?"

Oh shit! "I don't want to hurt you, honey. I don't have to do that to make love to you."

"You liked it when I did it to you."

"That's true."

"Don't you think it's worth the pain then?"

Christ Olivia, get out of this one if you can.

"Yes."

Alex leaned on one elbow and looked seriously at Olivia. "I want you to. I want it to be you. I…"

Olivia gently quieted her with soft fingers on her lips. Alex could smell her own essence on them and sucked one of Olivia's digits into her mouth. She smiled when she heard Olivia suck in air between clenched teeth. She released her hand. Olivia sat up and took her hands. "If that's what you want, I won't deny you. I just want you to be sure."

"I'm sure," she said and stretched out next to Olivia.

Olivia put her hand on Alex' stomach. "I'll be as gentle as I can, sweetheart," she said softly.

"I trust you, Liv."

The pain had been sharp, but short. Olivia had been whispering loving words in her ear to make her relax. She had been so close when Olivia had pushed through that last barrier that it only took a couple of strokes before she cried out Olivia's name. She lay still for a moment as her body calmed down. Olivia moved beside her and she could feel her pulling out of her. Alex quickly put her hand on top of Olivia's and stopped her.

"Not yet. Just a little longer, okay?"

"As long as you need, honey," Olivia said and kissed her.

Part 2

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