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ARCHIVING: Only with the permission of the author.
SPOILERS: For season one.
After the Tone
By tigerDE
"Hey, its me…I, err…just wanted to let you know that I love you. I'm so sorry baby, I'm so sorry. I love you so much and this…its killing me, not knowing where you are. Please, call me when you get this, so I know you're ok. Please. I love you, T, so much. I just need to know you're ok."
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"Baby, please, where are you? I know I fucked up, and I'm so sorry for hurting you. I love you baby, please ring me. I need to know you're ok."
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"Erm…Alice just rang. She told me you're staying with her. I...please baby, come home? I love you, I do. Please?
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"Ok, I'm beginning to get the hint. I'm so sorry, T, you have to believe me. Please, just…call me. It's been two days, Tina. Two. Whole. Days. I've been going out of my mind! Please, call me."
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"Hey, err…Alice called me, asked if she could come get some stuff of yours. I…I couldn't go in the…in the…bedroom...err, so Alice had to pack your clothes. I hope she got the right stuff. I gave her your mail too. There's one in there from your mother, and one from Liz. We got one from that Ugandan boy we adopted last year, too, but I can't pronounce his name. Anyway, he sent a hand print, so I put that in there for you. Erm…I'm dying without you, T. I can't sleep, I can't eat. I can't even fucking work, because my attention span is too short. I think about you all the time, Tina, I need you! Please, call me, or return my answer message, or something. I just…I need to hear your voice."
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"Ok, erm…Alice hasn't called, so I'm guessing you don't need any more stuff. I was thinking, T, maybe I should go…stay with Kit or something. And you could stay at the house. If you wanted, maybe. I mean, you deserve the house, I don't. Not after…what I did. Well, it's a thought. If you want it that way then…call me. Or get Alice to call me. I'd rather if you called me, I miss you. I…never mind, you probably aren't listening to my messages anyway."
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"T…I…sorry, you don't need to listen to me cry. I'm just…I'm so lonely, Tina, I miss you. I love you so much. I'm sorry."
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"Hey, T, it's me. I went to see a therapist today, of my own free will. I fucked up, Tina, I know I did, and I will do anything to make it right. Let me know what you want me to do, and I'll do it. Please, I hate not knowing where we stand. I just need to know if I have a chance. Call me."
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"Two weeks, Tina. Two fucking weeks. And I haven't heard a word from you, I'm going out of my mind! Do you really hate me that much? Actually, don't answer that."
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"I saw you today, with the gang. I was going to go into The Planet, but I saw you all sat outside. God, you looked so beautiful, T. I…never mind."
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"Hey, I had a really good session with my therapist today. Well, not 'good' as in 'fun', because you know I hate therapy. I mean 'good' as in there was a lot of headway. I never realised how much influence my father has…had on my life. All my life I've aimed for perfection to please my father, even though that will never happen – yes, I've been talking to Kit too! - and I thought admitting I needed to be held and comforted would make me less of a person. I felt I had to be the strong one, and I wanted so bad to ease your pain, but I didn't know how. I was so out of control, and for me, that is so scary. You know what I'm like, I have to be in control all the time, and I wasn't and I hated it. So I…"
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"Sorry about that, the message ran out. Where was I? Oh yeah, so I tried to gain control again. And, well, this isn't something I'm proud of, but…before I met you I used to have a lot of one night stands. I used to have meaningless sex with some stranger, have one night of oblivion and forget everything else that was going on in my life. And that's what I needed, T, just the chance to forget all the shit that was happening. I needed to forget that we'd lost our baby boy, that my career was on the line and could be over in a flash, that my father still wouldn't accept our relationship. I needed you to help me, but when I tried to connect with you, you just pushed me away. Whenever I tried to touch you, you shrugged my hands off and…"
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"Hey, the machine ran out again. I'm not trying to blame you, it wasn't your fault. I'm just trying to let you know what was going through my head. I'm sorry, Tina. I'm terrified that I've lost the best thing that ever happened to me. Please, if there is any chance for us, then call me. Please."
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"Well, you haven't rung, so I guess that means there isn't a chance for us. I…I just hope you're happy, T. I want to be your friend; I can't imagine my life without you in it in some way, shape or form. Call me, and we could go out, yunno, like friends do.
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"Hey, I heard you got a new job. Congratulations! Alice told me, she's dead proud of you. I hope it goes well. She also told me that you were thinking of getting your own apartment. I'm going to sell the house, 'cause there's no one living there, so I'll give the papers that you need to sign to Alice. I'll get the joint accounts sorted out too. Erm…I meant what I said about wanting to be friends, and I asked Alice what you said about it, and she said that you would find it too hard. I'm sorry, if you ever change your mind, I'd love to be your friend."
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"Hi, it's Bette. You didn't call, so I guessed that the money came through ok. Erm…I just wanted to let you know that I'm moving. To New York. I'm not really sure why I'm telling you anyway, 'cause its not like we talk anymore, but…it just seemed wrong to leave without telling you. I haven't told the girls yet, but I'm on my way to do that now. Erm…bye."
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"Hello, Tina. It's Bette. I'm not sure if you use this number anymore – after all, it has been two years since we spoke. But, I just thought I'd let you know that I'm coming back to LA for a quick visit, and I'd love to see you. I'd love to see your son too, Alice told me all about him. Says he takes after you; I bet he's lovely. Anyway, I'll be in town until 11th August, and I'll be meeting the girls to catch up. If you want to join us, I'd be delighted to see you. Ok, bye."
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"Hey, Tina, it's Bette. Alice sent me a copy of your wedding photo, and you looked beautiful. Your husband is very handsome too, you make a lovely couple. And, blimey, your kids have grown! I can't believe Alistair is ten now, it's been so long. He looked very smart, you must be so proud. Anyway, just thought I'd call you and congratulate you. I hope you're as happy as you deserve to be."
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"Hey, Tina. Erm…I just got off the phone to Alice. She…she told me that you're ill. Err…I'm really sorry to hear that, T. I…if you need any help with medical costs, call me, Alice has my number. I've got more than I need, so it's no problem, really. Erm…I hope you're ok."
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~This number has not been recognized. Please hang up, and dial again.~
The End